Thursday, September 30, 2010

The New me

Hey All. Hope everyone is having a wonderful week as we near the weekend.

So I've undergone some changes the last several months or so. Had a slip and fall back in March and have been broken down since then. Along with the injury from having an MRI, turns out I have degenerative arthritis in my back. I'm truly my mothers child because she suffers from that as well. I never had any problems prior to the accident but my primary Dr. says accidents sometimes trigger it or make it worse. LOVELY. So I have the worst time sleeping and doing my normal everyday activities is.....shall I say less than pleasant, not to mention my attitude has been less than pleasant as well. Don't know how the family stands me at this point. Lol

I've been going to Physical Therapy, getting massage therapy and seeing the chiropractor since, but nothing really seems to help. Not to say that the massages don't feel GREAT. I always look forward to those. A recent visit with my Dr. and he suggested trying some Yoga, so that's next on the agenda. I've just begun to feel that NOTHING is going to help and occasionally just want to throw in the towel with all the Dr. visits, but I'm going to keep plugging along.

Hubby and I went 100% Vegetarian a little over a year ago and then went somewhat Vegan shortly after that. We still eat Salmon and Tuna, so I don't know if we can really consider ourselves Vegan since we're still eating the fish. We found this awesome Baker that lives in our building named Yuri. She made the best Vegan Lemon Muffins and for our sons 5th b-day a few weeks back made the most delicious Vegan Cupcakes. They were so cute and tasted so good, his little picky self CRUSHED them. Lol For anyone living in the Denver area you can find her at The downside to this is that we've decided once again to change up our diet so even the ingredients in the vegan baked goods, we're finding aren't healthy for us. We've decided to try an Alkaline diet, so we'll see how that goes. If anyone wants more info about it you can read about it here --->

So currently since Monday we've been fasting to cleanse our bodies of all the toxins and been drinking water with alkaline drops, drinking a nasty green concoction, juicing vegetables and eating Miso Soup. Love the Miso and always look forward to dinner time cause I suck that stuff up like a someone that hasn't eaten in months. Hubby told me one day I was acting like a fat person. Lol We both were and if not for the humor in it, it'd probably be a lot more difficult. Needless to say since Monday I have been one irritable person. Lol. I constantly smell food at the most odd times; I think my senses are heightened, although I have NO common sense right now.... Go figure. Lol As of today we're on day four and it's getting a little easier, but my greed always kicks in full gear when I see or smell food and going to the grocery store is TORTURE!!!!!

So what else....Kids have been back in school since Mid and late August. Girlie 1 and 2 are in 8th grade which is so UNBELIEVABLE. My step daughters mom got married in August and they moved from GA to Michigan, and girlie was NOT happy although I think she's adjusting and beginning to like it. I know when the cold weather kicks in she's gonna hate it. It's always an adjustment for kids at that age having to move and make new friends but she seems to be doing good.

My little girlie is going to turn 13 on October 13th. It's so funny how they grow up so quick. She's been hinting around about all the gifts she want's.....A Gibson guitar, the one she wants is a couple grand....I DON'T THINK SO. She wants some little Sony flip camcorder, the new Ipod touch or that Sony Dash. This little girl loses and breaks her cell phones on a regular and has lost an Ipod, lost a Nintendo DS, and just doesn't do a great job taking care of her things period so we really struggle with investing in any kind of electronics for her. She's doing great in school and finished last year will all A's and a few B's so I have a hard time not rewarding that, so we'll see.

My 19 year old has started his 2nd year of college. He's staying home this year cause those dorm fees were NO JOKE last year, plus he realized how nasty other folks are when you're living with them. I thought that was funny. It's amazing to me how fast that first year went, but I don't think it flew by as fast for him. I'm just looking forward to him finishing as I'm sure he is as well. He's been doing a lot more driving. He was a little leery about it when he first got his license last year, and I was terrified. I've gotten a little more comfortable, although he's already had on minor fender bender that left a ding in my car and some black paint on my front fender from the other persons car. I'm not pleased at how my car is looking, but I do love not having to chauffeur him around. I still worry and if he hasn't made it home by a certain time from school panic starts to set in. Lol. I know he's tired of my text's and calls about "are you safe, call me when you get there, call me when you're on your way home, etc. I've gotten a little better about that I think. He may disagree. Lol

Oh, and final thing..... Why did I LOSE my job back in June. The job was doing all kind of crazy crap that I'm not even going to get into. I think I've blogged about it on my other blog and not only me but EVERYONE in my department was getting fed up and walking around with a short fuse. Not to mention we didn't get our yearly raise because they claimed the economy was so bad, but yet the still continue to hire new people and we were busier than we had ever been in the entire time I worked there. Long story short they did a mandatory schedule change for everyone in our department. Like people don't have outside obligations, kids, school, part time jobs and whatnot. I guess our only obligation was supposed to be to the job. I was out on short term disability and then FMLA because of my injury when they made the decision and it was based on performance and attendance. Since they were still in the process of approving my FMLA I was dropped to the bottom of the list and got a crappy schedule. I was getting off too late to where I couldn't pick up my kids. I talked to my manager and the department manager and was like there is NO WAY this is going to work. I got a funky response and basically told them my family is first so I'm leaving at my normal time to pick up my kids, which was basically a half hour early every day. Not to mention I had vacation time that they wouldn't allow me to use to leave early.

So they ended up firing me and a gang of other people who had similar issues with the scheduling. I filed for unemployment,which they fought, I appealed and won of course. Although for some reason there's a 3 month delay with me getting a payment.What got me is how when we had the hearing the HR person from my job got on the phone and straight up lied about how I was NEVER on fmla and said I had excessive absences when all the absences we're under fmla, my leaving for Dr's appointments. They lied and said I didn't have vacation time, all though I have two check stubs from where they paid me for the vacation time that I had accrued up to that point. They had some woman representing them saying that I would leave work when ever I felt like it and could have come back to finish out my shift. I'm like 1. who the hell are you, 2. you are NOT at the location I worked at, 3. I didn't leave whenever I felt like it, I ALWAYS notified my manager and supervisors and followed proper procedure EVERY TIME I left and how the HELL do I come back and finish my shift when I was leaving only a half hour early daily. Freaking idiot!!!!! I was appalled that they would be so dirty. Not only did they do that to me they did it to a number of people that they fired.

Job hunting has been a pain in the you know what. Everyone that's hiring is paying less than I can afford to make or folks just aren't hiring at all. I fill like I've filled out a million and one applications with no luck. I'm considering taking this opportunity to finish school, which means more money that I don't have, but we'll see.

So as if this wasn't long enough, I'm going to end this now and wishing you all a happy rest of the week and an even better weekend.

Peace and Blessings.


Angela2BPecked said...

Your posts should come with cliffs notes!

I am sorry to hear about your health and job misfortune!Hopefully you find a new (better) job soon.

Thankfully I read about your fast since I thought you were just drinking water.I am not sure I could fast.

The Goddess said...

@ Angela. You're so funny.

Hopefully the health improves soon. We gave in today on the fast I was feeling so weak that I couldn't continue. We are still changing up the diet tremendously so hopefully that helps some.

As far as the job goes, it was making me physically sick and I was ALREADY in physical pain so it was more of a relief when they fired me. I was just pissed that they lied cause I had gotten so many awards recognition for my performance and then for them to turn around and lie, I was like UGH!!!! Are you kidding me.

Aly Cat 121 said...

Changing your diet/lifestyle will for SURE help your back and other health problems. The only thing is, the affects of it will take at least several or more years to notice. I changed my diet/lifestyle when I met hubby and it's taken me about 8 years to REALLY notice how much healthier I am. The main thing is the psoriasis I was born with is straight DORMANT. I ain't had a painful outbreak since 2001 - I STAYED in the dermatologist office, like my appointments were every 3 weeks. And my teeth . . . well I could go on.

So hang in there with how you all are eating. I'm not vegan (altho how we choose our food is vegan in thought - reading labels no GMO, only natural/local organic food, etc)

Hubby talks about being too alkaline and got a million different things for that (but I haven't gotten into the diet part yet).

Jobs in this economy are non existent and employees feeling themselves for real. Glad you appealed and won. Maybe you can do some in home day care or something. When hubby was laid of in 2009 he couldn't even get unemployment, so he was straight up Hustle Man bringing in $$. Sh*t I was about to start selling dinners out my back door *chuckle*

Okay, now that I blogged in your comments, I'm done. LOL!

The Goddess said...

@ Aly, don't tell me it's gonna take that long, I'm looking for instant changes. Lol. We have gotten alot of conflicting info on Alkaline foods. You go to one site it says one thing and you go to another site you get something completely different. We bought some ph strips to check our levels and although it wasn't what I thought it would be I wasn't pleased. I know all things come in time, I just need to learn a little more patience. I know it ALL starts with the diet and you know folks be thinking we're crazy when we tell them about reading labels and whats in the food that they THINK is healthy. But all I can say is...we give you the info and you chose to do what you will.

I know I don't have the patience or the space to deal with in home daycare. I did it many years back but now I'm struggling to keep my cool with this little one over here. Lol You know this little boy told me that I was getting on his nerves today because I wouldn't do something, I don't even remember. We are and have been looking into some self employment options, so hopefully that come to fruition SOON.

FreeSpirit said...
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FreeSpirit said...

Wow! You should have filed a suit against your employee for discrimination. That is exactly what they did. They knew you would be approved for FMLA and I learned from something I went through with my employer that if you are unable to work at least 80% of your schedule you can stay on long term disability and still work which means you will still get your full salary. If more people experienced this too, I say a class action suit should be persued. I went through a similar thing and I fought, got a settlement, kept my long term disability and medical benefits for my fam, and I can go back to my original position when my docs clear me to return to work. Don't let them get away with that sis.

I mentioned to your hubby that you two are my inspiration for getting back on my health regimen. My husband has just ventured into vegetarianism. I'm not quite ready for that commitment just yet but I'm cool with helping him stay on track.

Ladynay said...

Hate that you fell and nothing is working at the moment.

You and hubby's diet is wow! Don't think I could do it!

Time sure flies. I remember you entry about your son applying for school and now he is in his 2nd year!

Glad to hear everyone is doing decent.

Good luck on the job hunt ma'am.

Gina said...

What a post! Lot's of information and you write it out so well even when you are so frustrated with so many things.

I am so sorry about your back pain. I have only had temporary issues with that sort of thing and not sleeping well... it's horrible... torture. I highly recommend you look into these shoes that correct a lot of back pain and other issues in the body. Trust me, they don't look that weird when you have them on and your weight pushes the coild down. Look at the "health info" tab and read about the back pain benefits.

Gina said...

Here is the main site - I didn't realize I linked the store locator, though that is helpful too.

The Goddess said...

@ Free, Hey Lady. I didn't know you had a blog. You learn something new everyday. I'm so over my employer and am confident that they are going to be held accountable for their actions.

I'm glad Hubby and I can inspire others in a positive way, that's good to hear. I think sometimes changing the diet sounds harder than it really is. While you're hubby is making his change, just gradually start incorporating some of what he eats in your meals. You'll notice how different you feel and before you know it you'll be eating the same way. Wishing you both luck. It's a process.

@ Ladynay, Thanks Chica. Didn't that time go fast. It does seem like just yesterday we were going through our ups and downs with applying and financial aid. If you ask him, the time is going tooo slow. Lol. I'm sure I'd be saying the same if it were me. You know we always want the reward without putting in the hard work sometimes. Lol

Hey Gina....Thanks so much for that. It really is torture. I think people look at me and because I can move and walk don't really realize how much pain I'm in. And when it effects my sleep....Lets just say, watch out. Lol I'm going to definitely look into that. I'll try almost anything if I feel it's going to offer some relief. Thanks!!!!